On Track

So I am still on track with my training! I did a 20 min workout on Wed night after all. It felt a lot easier than it used to, so that was good.

Yesterday I was in a bad mood. I've been having a lot of anxiety lately (which has been motivational for running, actually). There are a lot of things going on in our life right now that have us both stressed out. Plus, I'm dealing with my little baby turning 1! I also had an epiphany that part of my anxiety is probably due to the emotional stuff coming up around my mom's death. Last year, I was a bit pre-occupied giving birth/getting to know my baby to deal with the anniversary of her death and so I think it is coming up for me now. There isn't much to say other than I really miss her and I am so sad that she and Raviv will not have the joy of knowing each other.

Anyway, I got home and I was stressed out, Bil was stressed, and clearly Raviv was stressed in response. He was very clingy to me, and after putting him to bed, he kept waking up screaming. This is very unusual for the little guy. He isn't a big napper, but his bedtime is sacred. I just hope that Bil and I can find more productive outlets for our stress so that Raviv feels safe.

Yesterday was supposed to be a rest day. I had thought that it was supposed to be near 50 today so I decided I would run at work given that we have guests for Shabbat dinner tonight. Well, after a glance at the weather report I realized that it was actually going to be FREEZING today (single digits). Given the bad mood I was in, I decided to run it out yesterday.

I had a good run. But rather than use the run as a meditative time, I watched TV. I watched "Modern Family" which is really funny. I had never seen it and it made me laugh out loud while running. So now today I can rest and have my much needed Shabbat.

Funny Story: Not really something I observed, but so funny I have to share. Yesterday Bil's school smelled like dog poo all afternoon. Apparently someone had been letting their dog crap on the playing fields, the second graders all ran through it and tracked it throughout the school!